yada..yada,,~

*sleepy* but yet am still have mood to post in here. *hik!

I just got a SMS from a mysterious person. He said that he is my secret admirer. Ohh no.. is there someone trying to play with me? Please... stop doing that. I hate! Plus, I do not like to serve any mysterious person. Sorry.

Why ha... ? nowadays kan.. ramai jugak la yang trying to attach me. Kebanyakannya my old primary school-mate. Hmm kami dah lama lost contact since standard 6, then now we met on facebook. I thought they just wanna friend and reconnect with me. But... they are trying to attach me at the same time. Oh.. I totally could not accept that. I am sorry. I know, maybe in this age, we are looking for a partner. I do understand the needs. But, not me. I do not have a heart for anyone right now.

The heart is so difficult to find what it wants. Once it found, it will never look at the others. But if what it found is not it's, there will be hard to find again.

i say

Assalamualaikum, hello dan hye!! hmm what a sunny day here. so hottt! kinda tired of being bored while waiting for my eldest brother to pick me up. Where is he? Hmmmm

I feel so boring. Ya.. I do have a lot of assignment to be done and coming test on this week. But.. hehe am lazy now. I will do it later. huhuu..

Ohh I miss my besties damn much!! Can not wait to hang up with them.. when..? huhu. I feel so lonely here. I do not know why. Ya.. of course there are a lot of people around. But.. I do not know. The heart feels so empty. I am pushing my self to patient and be strong.

Do I need a boyfriend? Thanks but no thanks. I do not think I need for now.

Nothing much to say. going back to the Facebook. To0dles!!!

Cecite

Assalamualaikum dan hello, hye!! Hmmhhhh (menarik nafas dalam2). Sudah beberapa hari saya tidak menulis di sini dengan membiarkan laman ini dengan habuk dan tiada kunjungan yang kerap (poyo!).

Ok, Alhamdulilah saya dalam keadaan yang sihat walafiat hari ini. Sejak kebelakangan ini ada beberapa isu-isu yang kurang senang berlaku dalam hidup. Namun, Allah telah memberikan saya kekuatan untuk menghadapinya dengan tabah. Alhamdulillah.

Biasalah kehidupan as a degree student, banyak kerja yang perlu dibereskan dan memerlukan semangat berdikari yang kuat. Berbanding dengan diploma, semuanya disuap dan ditatih. InsyaALLAH saya bisa melakukan semuanya dengan baik.

Hmm beberapa hari lalu, saya sempat menonton siri drama Lagenda Budak Setan di rumah Cik Neng (mak sedara) dan tiba-tiba saya terfikir, macam ada kaitan dengan cerita saya pulak. ahaha. Ya.. kisah saya dengan si Dia. Kononnya saya memegang watak Kate! Hehe..

Oh tidakkk... saya harus melupakan si Dia. Biarpun kami masih berkawan seperti biasa, namun saya akui yang kami sudah tidak semesra dahulu setelah dia mengetahui hal itu. Mungkin faktor masing-masing sibuk atau sememangnya saya sudah mula kekok untuk berkawan seperti biasa. Terpulang. Saya percaya, Allah lebih mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk hamba-Nya.

Apa yang penting, saya mahu meneruskan hidup dengan bahagia dan masih mencari erti hidup dan sebuah kebahagian sebenar. Masih berusaha untuk memperbaiki diri. Semoga segalanya terpelihara oleh-Nya. InsyaALLAH.

Hati berbisik

Malam Bertandang

Hati Berbisik Mengenang

Cerita Derita Yang Daku Pendam

Kata Menguji

Cuba Untuk Kusudahi

Berulang Airmata Membasahi

Aku Kini Perlu Berdiri

Walau Hakikatnya

Pasti Kan Melukai

Aku Ingin

Semua Rasai

Kerna Pengakhirnya Hidup

Ku Sendiri

Oh Tuhan Kau Berikan Aku

Segala Kekuatan

Meneruskan

Perjalanan

::salam maulidur rasul:: Maher Zain - The Chosen One | ماهر زين - المختار

The emptiness

Hard to describe the feeling rite now. I do not know whether what I have done is the right thing or not. I feel so stupid, empty, and needing..

"Sedetik Lebih" - Anuar Zain

Ungunya Cinta

Ntahla..

Ehem.. testing..testing.. 1..2..3..ehem! notnotnott.. ehem! adeh..sakit tekak guwe. ahaa poyo jek. padahal bukan guna sore pun neh. ngehx3.. iyolah..saye baru je lepas demam kan.. and having awful sore throat. uhuk uhukk.. batuk!! makan ubat sebotol pun tak ilang agi. huhu.

Ok, saya baru je abis tengok citer 'Ungunya cinta'. Arahan sape saye pun tatau. hik! pelakon dia, Shanaaz Ahmad dengan Leez AF. Besh giler citer dia. komedi romantis dan sedih. huhu.. Rase tak puas tengok...and nak tengok lagik. huhu.. Suka sangat watak Andy ngan Ungu. Haa kalo tak silap, diorang copy citer korea yang tajuknya "My tutor friend". Sebab jalan citer dia sebijik. Cuma ending je lain. hmm pape je lah.. layannn~

Oh syoknya bercinta.. hik! aduwai.. pehal lak ni. Hmm ntahla tetiba rase kosong! Ops!

Pagi tadi saya menonton filem hidustan, "Kuch Kuch Hota Hai". Kalau tak silap, last skali saya layan muvie tu masa standard 4. Lama kottt. Tapi kan.. saya still lagi bleh feel tau. Siap boleh rase sedih lagi. Haih ape ke hal ni..?? Tau tak 'Kuch Kuch Hota Hai' tu maksud ape? Maksud dia.. sesuatu berlaku dalam hati. Hmm am waiting for that something. hehe

taye demam.. huk huk hukk

what the heart says..

Assalamualaikum..Hello dan hye! with a very good morning and heva nice day to us. Am curently listening to Maher Zain's song, InsyaALLAH (malay version) repeatedly. The song is so nice and touching. I do love those songs by him. It would makes me awake from my day dream. Who am I.. what am I doing..

Yes, am in despair for this few days. Having a problem (can't describe). I feel like in between and hard to make decisions even I can make it for my own good. But no.. I have to think about others too. I do not want let others hurted. But it seems I have to. I have no choice. Yet, I do not make any decisions. Am praying to Him and hoping for the best way. InsyaALLAH.

Hmm I am a bit tired actually. I have no times for myself. I am trying to give my times to everyone needs as I could. But there is still a bit unfair and unsatisfied. I am so sorry. I am trying my best.

For 'si Dia'.. yes, I do like you since we met. But for nowadays it seems 'I like you more'. I am so sorry. I know it supposed to not happen. I do not know why I have this feeling towards you.
I am not easy to fall. But when my heart points to you as Allah's willing.. I choose you with a sincere. And you know what.. you have all what I need. But just a thing. Your heart!!. I do not have that. I do not know whether it will be mine or not.
I can not have a hope as you will give me a positive feedback. Do not worry. I am still awake to know what is the truth. InsyaALLAH, Allah preserves us.
But sometimes, I think to get rid from you. Delete all about you. Your facebook and your phone number. Ahaaa.. Should I? I can not help myself. I can not stop to greet you. I know sometimes it does make you feel bored. Am so sorry, dear. Am trying to stop it. Soon yea..

Oh I have a lot of assignments. I just finished one of them last night. Yet, still have a few. Fwuhh.. I got to go. To0dles!!!