Puzzling

Salam a'laik. hai am right here again. Wuho00.. Hmm ok I would like to share something sad for this time.. wuwuw~ Am feeling so uncomfortable deep inside my heart. I am breaking peoples' heart. Am bad. BUT, I do not know how to make them satisfy enough on me. I did because I did have reasons. But I kept silent because I did not want to hear any disappointed voices. I feel so hurts either. I wish to beg for their understanding. But it is just in silent. I could not. I have no strength to say my right.

Do not know why. Am stuck by peoples' satisfaction and I broke others. Am puzzled to choose which way to go which is the best for everyone! They never understand me. They never.

I keep asking, when will be my time to make my own decision and stands freezing on my right step. sighs.

Am in this side because they need me so much! While the other side need me either. I am puzzled. I could not make them all satisfied.

Until now, I just keep silent and let them blame me. I know I was wrong to be in silent. I really have no strength to say anything for my right. I am scare. But deep inside my heart, almost every time I am thinking of how to make them happy and satisfy with me and say that I am a good girl.

I know they might say that I never think of them. I am dumping them or whatsoever. But if I could make them trust me that I am not, that would be so glad.